Crumpet,
I have always talked out loud to myself. When my voice is "in the air" I can "hear" my thoughts in a way that does not happen if I keep in inside. By listening to what I am going ot say to someone, I can modify or change the words to better state the ideas I want to get across.
Cell phones are a great invention for people like me: I can talk to myself in the car or in the yard and people think I am on the phone!
On last thought...I have noticed this about you: you paint yourself as a bit of a vamp, a tart, a bit out there: know what I think?
I think you are a lot like our son, Adam: "naturally" spiritual and intiuativly in touch with the Divine. It will be no surprise to me that I will see you walk into our Lord's Kingdom far ahead of struggling fools like this old hillbilly. You are just a bit on the fringes now: later, when a lot of dust settles: you will be as center as any one can be.
With you in this Journey,
V